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Author: Amber

  • Life!!!!

    Hahahahaha life is hilarious sometimes!!! Happy holidays a day late! Well 41 mins after Christmas. Christmas is so commercialized, I guess I can use that word. Unless you attend church, or a religious anything you don’t really hear advertisement on Christ’s birth just Santa … question that makes think hmmm? Wonder why that is??? Hope everyone was able to enjoy the time they were allowed to spend with the ones they chose to spend time with… Yes you are allowed to have off for 2 days ok u can have 3or 4 days., but I want you to be ready to work when you come back not sure if you can have off for years this year but I’ll see if we can make that happen for you. Can’t promise you will have off but will do my best. I am pretty sure everyone has heard somewhere along the line of those right!? Life as we all know is here & gone the older you get timer sends to Syed up… wonder why the it is? I do… I wonder why we spend more money on material things to have a few days or 1 day off in celebration of the birth of Christ but we see a fat guy with a beard wearing red give toys to kids. People then have to choose who they want to spend that time with Which family? Can we squeeze them in ? Do we have enough time? Do we have enough money? Maybe take off an extra day or two so we can squeeze them all in.. Time is precious family friends you consider family because they are the ones there for you. We live in a world where people are given a chance to live on a time frame that you have no control over any sec could be your last ( unless your relationship with Christ iis good) so while you’re on this time frame I’m going to tell you while you’re hear you have so cut trees down to make paper $ now the rest of the minerals to make today’s technology for everything else to fully function and survive these days. , what days of the week I’m working depending on what job field I decide I want to spend my life doing now that I am bring forced to and as I’m here I may be able to travel depending on how the situation is… lol!!people what!? I’m not ok with is.. I’m not ok with any of that. We live in a world that we do not have what we deserve or desire it’s survive in this dog eat dog . We’re Not getting the life that that birth we celebrate well supposed to be celebrating during the holidays that everyone could have and enjoy today and everyday If we actually came together for one another instead of picking and choosing who we are able to spend time with If we have time….. I was interrupted in the middle of this and I’m tired now so I’ll be back tomorrow to finish this. I shouldn’t have to say I was interrupted or have felt that way but that’s the perspective in today’s world…. I want to change that.. but I can’t not alone at least…

    good night🙏❤️lots of love

  • Smiles win

    Is it because Im positive most of the time? Is it because I hide that things bother me? Is it because you know I’ll do it? Is it just because I’m a mom? I’m not super woman I can’t go but for so long and I’m tired I’m so tired… i wish they would help me , I wish they would do something for me for once. I’m not wanting them to see what I do. I just wish I didn’t have to ask them, I wish they could do something… anything just something

  • 100% MAN

    I’m going to try really hard to make time for this every night! The most incredible thing happened to me recently, and I’m almost lost for words. Most ratings are 1-10 I’m rating this 11 it’s way better than a 10 ! 11 is a master number 11 has various meanings if you don’t know you should look it up. The day that he it to my doorstep if you add the numbers up they equal 11. I look at a lot of things by meaning of numbers if it jumps out at me…. Anyway this man came into my life. Asking where did he come from would be ludicrous, God gave him to me. Falling in love this quickly Was so not supposed to happen. I’ve had step out of the relationship status for a year now…. Not wanting any distractions… needed to focus on things for me and not give anyone else my attention being that I always try to make sure that the the person I’m with is ok not what I need to do for myself…. Well this guy has shown me how much he wants to love me and be there for me and has made me feel like he was made for me. I couldn’t have made a man this good if I’d made him myself… that’s some real stuff right there… He blows me away with everything he has said & done in every situation. No I’m not just sayiing that because it’s the beginning and blah blah blah like most relationships where it’s always rainbows and puppy dogs. I’m 41 years old and oh boy have heard ,seen, experienced many things when it comes to Partnerships & never in a million years would I have thought I’d hear and see what these last 2 weeks have given me. God literally gave me a 100% Real Man!

    When you have a man come to you and tell you that he should have been there and sacrificed what he wanted or needed to do for you that’s a keeper. Like he shows me everything that he could do to make sure I know he wants this to work and that I should have any type of doubt or worry that he will always be my partner. That I will not have to do anything alone that he will appears be there for me no matter what. You know I know it’s still the beginning but I have trust in this man’s words and actions that it will be the best decision over made that will lat until forever and it will be the most beautiful thing ever. Don’t believe me? You’ll see I promise it will be.. I’m a little tired now and I got stuff to take care of so I’m gonna end this for now smile be happy it’s good for you!!!

  • Why can’t every day have HALLOWEEN vibes?

    Halloween !!! My favorite holiday!! The way most feel about Christmas is how I feel about Halloween! The decorations the kids the candy! The costumes!!!

    So Halloween is the least judgmental day ever! Anyone can wear whatever you want & it’s ok no one judges you. Dressing up like the Queen you are tiara & sparkling shoes. Or a pilot or a monster or a a fairy! It can be anything from an any to an eagle to an elephant!!! And you’ll probably get more compliments than you normally would no matter what the outfit might look like. The only day of the year that you can wear whatever you want without worry. You want to also know what is so special about Halloween!? It’s the only holiday that people go door to door , yes it’s for candy but it’s something we actually come together and do together. It gives us the opportunity to meet new people & could you imagine if we did something like that more regularly, do you see how strong we could become?

  • the sincere eyes of the man who was robbed me…

    Can you hear me I hope so and I want you to listen loud and clear so it’s 313 now but it was 11 at 3:11 today on September 12, 2025. I’m riding down the road and for some reason it pops in my head back about 19 years ago. I had a gun to my head and I was duct tape in the car in the driveway of my house when I gotten home that evening from movie time, I noticed that the cat was not inside and I know for sure I saw that cat as I was walking out the door And as soon as that thought, and those words started to come out of my mouth, I also noticed that there was a light on that wasn’t on before and my kids room. My kids weren’t there this day so then like I was saying that that knowing that the cat was in doors, I didn’t even have a split while that is all I had was literally a split second to know that something wasn’t right, but not even it was barely even that like I didn’t have like not even enough I didn’t have the time to be like did somebody break in my house like just saying those words I didn’t have that much time so there was no time to think it just happened Shots were being fired from a gun from the side my house and I hear FBI get down now when I first heard FBI I really actually thought it was the FBI and then their ski mask in around the heads and faces of these two men approached me on the passenger side of the vehicle which actually was my cousin‘s vehicle with borrowed her car that evening And a tire was shot at so we couldn’t drive away the other guy that approached the guy that also lived at my house. He was pistol whipped on the side of his face. I can’t remember whether or not they wrapped him in duct, tape or not I was wrapped in duct tape with a gun to the side of my head and you know at first, I was a little frightened. I was 7 1/2 eight months pregnant with my with one of my children, and I was not scared. I wasn’t terrified. I know I probably should’ve been, but I saw the look in that guy‘s eyes. He did not wanna hurt me. I don’t even know who he is five years after the incident I did find out who had came into my home and did that but I don’t know. I don’t know his story. Only thing I know is he lived the guy both of them live together and an apartment of where a girl I know used to live as well. Anyway, I just knew you didn’t wanna hurt me. I don’t even know if that guy even wanted to be there. I don’t know if he was like bullied from the other guy to do it. I don’t know. Maybe it was his idea and it’s been going way too far. I don’t I don’t know, but one thing I didn’t know is he did not wanna hurt me so he barely put the tape on me. He did still my purse. Didn’t have much cash in there that didn’t give a crap about that but I didn’t like the fact that I didn’t go get a new drivers license. I had to go get new insurance cards for myself my other children like and yeah I’m one of those people who cares they Social Security card and their wallet and children so needless to say I lost all of that and I had to go get it all over again I do not carry around Social Security cards in my wallet anymore after that incident but I guess I just wanna know that story behind that guy and I also wanna tell him that I know that he wasn’t gonna hurt me. I have in the last five years or so I did get a message from the other guythe one that pistol whipped my roommates head face. I did get a message from him from someone else, that he was sorry for that evening. I did appreciate that. You never know what could happen .. at any given moment. These men lost there freedom on the next house they hit & are now spending the rest of there lives in prison….

  • Sunday Morning

    June 22, 2025

    Birds are chu

    it’s are chirping this morning. As they do every morning. I’m going to walk down to my sisters and dad’s house momentarily and take me a shower before church this morning. Something is wrong with my the pump in the well, the free that have looked don’t know what the issue is. My daughter’s father was duped to come look at it and he didn’t show up.

    Interesting past few days what would be life without anything hallowing

  • life

    I know in this world you have to work for what you want , I also know that anyone could perhaps have anything that they want as long as they work towards it and put their mind to it. And how bad they actually really want it. I do believe in more good than bad. I believe that there are a lot more good people in this world than there are bad people in this world. I still cannot wrap my head 100% around the evil and it’s not really the evil more or less that I can’t wear my head around it is the Unseen intentions of those who say mean things the whole I’m rubber you’re blue and whatever you say, bounces off of me and sticks to you is a complete opposite of what actual reality is at least in my world because things that people say do not go away. They’re always there in your mind because everything you hear well it just doesn’t go away now you could punch me in my face and that bruise will go away long forgotten when you cannot see it in the mirror but that reflection reflects the words that do not leave your mind if you’re not strong enough to listen to them. And anyone reading this just now that you do have the power to push those words into greater things and you can learn how to be who you naturally are and that is better than those words that have been spoken to you and now I’m writing this or speaking about it because Unfortunately, I have been blessed with many whom do not like to see me for who I am and talk things of me that are not true of me and for what reason I have no idea the one thing that I like to say, and I tell my children you have haters then you’re obviously doing something rightso who cares what they say and if it’s not affecting your daily life then again, who cares what they say as long as you know who you really are then it shouldn’t matter and today yesterday and the day before and the day before that you know I hear from people That tell me, but you know someone was not talking very good of me that well smiles in my face and pretends that they like me. Love me at that matter. Does it get to me sometimes yeah I don’t understand what I’ve done to this person to make them feel and say the things that they say towards me One thing I can say is I still love that person and eventually that person may know what it really doesn’t matter. I just wanted to say something because it allows me to not take what they say to heart anyway I hope everyone knows it’s reading this that you guys are beautiful and amazing and I hope you get everything you want in life.

  • Family

    I’m not sure where to begin. I haven’t been on here for a while because I don’t know how to use this thing which is kind of sad honestly but you know what that’s what I get for skipping class when I was in high school yep, AnyWho, life right wow, let’s see my baby sister had a little girl back in June . My other younger sister is due at the end of September a girl, my baby sister with the first girl that was her first child my sister that’s right underneath me that’s due at the end of September. This is her seventh child yes and then my other sister she is also pregnant with her fourth child and she’s having a boy. Oh man yes my family is large very very large family between me and my three sisters. I have four she’ll have 48+ one is 9+7 is 16 yeah And I am the oldest grandchildren and there are I wanna say something great we have five generations at one time when my mother was still alive. I have my children. It’s pretty cool, but I mean I didn’t start a little early regret having children I think I had more energy. I was able to call my younger years a little bit more Than adults in this generation you need to be a little bit more to what what is going on you know I always be a little hit. What’s going on parenting you know not to too far from from an Eno to now I can say that some of the old school well they’re pretty old. Old school my grandmother is 83 going on 84 this October. She’s definitely old school for real not a bad thing but just is not a 100% aware of you know how life is she my grandparents raised me well I live with them a lot of my childhood. My mom and dad did, but I did live with my grandparents as well And that generational gap definitely kinda made my teenage years when I did stay with them little rough little rough when they didn’t have to be communication wasn’t correct certain extent and certain way certain situation should I say but anyway yes I come from a large family family family. I was taught one thing. I’m sure other people will agree with me that sometimes Maya I’m helping my children. Keep our family. I try my best to keep the family together as much as I possibly can a lot of grandchildren get older and they have their own children in their own families in their own lives. Some traditions shouldn’t die…

  • And this is life in Ambers world!

    well it’s been about a month since I’ve been on here honestly I hadn’t even thought about it. Randomly here & there & I really should do this everyday ! My life is so crazy ! Boredom is not something I know to much about & I believe Einstein said that intelligent people do not get bored , they can always find something to do! The passed 2 weeks I’ve been helping my mema get things ready for her house to be put on the market, selling this piece of property digs deep into my core this is the one place I’ve always considered home. My grandparents bought it back in the early 80s built a house made it a home we had horses and beautiful tall pine trees a creek that